It seems so long since I wrote a song. It's always the same. Too busy! Not enough quiet time! No inspiration! Exploring a new style!
It's all a smoke screen. I can hide behind all of those excuses but the fact is I haven't written anything because I haven't tried. I haven't tried because I felt disillusioned in my own musicianship and ability to write a song. A few weeks ago I felt a stirring inside and I knew the signs - a song was on its way. I've been fighting it for a few months now and during the beginning of the half term break I took advantage of a couple of hours and out poured the song. Now and then is really about our relationship with God. It's recognising the good things that God has done for us rather than focus on the grime of the world around us. Is about rising out of the ashes refreshed and renewed. It's about having scars and not being afraid to let them be seen. The recording is only a demo. I recorded it on an iPad using garageband app so it's a little raw. I guess it would easy for you to read for yourself, so here are the lyrics. Click on the title of the song to hear it in soundcloud.
Now and Then
Steve Lowndes 21 February 2013
Now and then, when my heart is aching
Now and then, when my dreams are breaking
And I'm weary of this world
And I try to keep on going
Even though I see nothing growing
And it's such a heavy load
I know that I get blind to all
The blessings in my life
And still you remind me you made me who I am
You, you are my hearts desire
Your grace is so much more than I deserve
All my dreams are filled with love
That bandages my pain and heals my aching heart.
When a prayer seems unanswered
I'll carry on and keep believing,
That you hear my every thought.
And you know my heart is yearning
So I'll wait until the time is right
To see your glory flow
And when I stand before your throne
And meet you face to face
I know you'll remind me you choose me by your grace.
You, you are my hearts desire
Your grace is so much more than I deserve
All my dreams are filled with love
That bandages my pain and heals my aching heart.